After my grandfather left this Earth recently, I’ve been thinking about my mother,
and grandmothers, whose souls departed our planet many moons ago.
Speaking frankly, my primary caretakers are gone with the wind . . .
And yet they will always be with me,
just as yours that have passed on are with you.
This is a sobering experience,
and not without feelings of grief, sadness, and loss.
Mercury in retrograde is a good time to revisit and reflect on past relationships.
You can also work with the intensities of summer eclipses that
bring back past experiences to the surface.
It can be hard not to wanderlust into an internal widespread panic,
with regards to your past fears or regrets . . .
But their spirits keep on streaming into our world . . .
They want to connect with us in spirit together,
and help us co-create Heaven on Earth.
Can you hear them wanting to help us lighten our load, and feel peace in our hearts?
What baggage are you ready to give back to them that was passed on to you?
Releasing what has weighed you down in this lifetime is a good karmic clearing.
We have all been handed down landfills
that need to be composted, mulched, and cleared.
Yeah, entanglement with form is natural for spirit,
till it leaves its mind-body connection . . .
It is also natural for it to feel free when it let’s go of the ties that bind.
Many of the children that I have worked with have lost their parents to
sudden deaths, such as drug overdoses, homelessness, incarceration, and are now
being raised by aging grandparents, extended family, or the foster care system.
We all need to keep working on love – by being in our hearts with one another,
even when tough love is called upon, do it with compassion.
It can be challenging to know how other people are going to feel
much later in life when their parents leave them behind.
It can bring up unexpected feelings of abandonment.
Regardless of your chronological age, it really doesn’t matter how old you are,
as the feelings you deal with are the same, like with our animal friend pets, etc.
We might process them differently, and we all grieve in our own ways.
But these feelings are universal, and they need to be supported, and processed.
I remember a High School teacher once sharing some wisdom that children
become adults when they wake up to the reality that their parents aren’t gods . . .
Rather they are human beings.
That bell of mindfulness resonated with me back zen,
and it rings true even more with me right tao.
I understand that many people get stuck in a vibration that looks like:
Clinging to a belief that you should hold tight to your loved ones, and
that your children should lean on you.
There is a voice that says that you deserve to suffer, and be driven by
guilt, shame, a generalized sense of duty, and sacrifice, feeling unworthy of
receiving from others, and being afraid of the mystery and adventure of life.
There is a hard-edged, nose to the grindstone security in that mind-set.
You might even feel empowered by trying to control everything in your life.
But it is a recipe for perpetual disappointment, let down, and unhappiness.
And it is difficult to Let Go and Let God in that vibration.
Consider shifting your mind-set into a receiving perspective,
of welcoming your goals and objectives as arriving, but without getting hung up
on the outcomes you desire or prefer . . .
Be open to receiving the abundant possibilities
that you might not have planned for!
Take in your experiences, whatever they are, and observe them as a
spiritual watcher of whatever events come up in your field of vision in real-time.
Till our next walking meditation,
Ari
