Last week, we followed Dog tracks. Along the trails, I found myself being more affectionate with my family and mindful of boundaries in relationships. While celebrating the Winter Solstice, we noted hot topics of gratitude and letting go, while coaxing back the light. On the Gregorian calendar, we embark on 2013 and continue pressing onward in our Consciousness’ assent. We are in the process of Climate Change and co-creating a New Earth right now and you are It. Some folks were terrified of Doomsday scenarios that promised the end of the world. Others were disappointed about being disappointed that our dying old world didn’t fall off the cliff, while immediately being transformed into a Golden Age on the day after. But aliens didn’t take over and Hillary Clinton went to the hospital–thankfully receiving quality health care without worry of how to pay for it. Soon we welcome the arrival of the Chinese-Lunar New Year, as Spring begins budding underground with Groundhog. Before too long, we will know energetic balance again on the Spring Equinox in March. I awoke the other night to a clear vision of a Beetle gleaming across my inner sky. Like the Sun’s movement across the sky, Beetle moves from East to West. Mother energy has been revisiting us at this time, as feminine-yin energy is dominant and we are turning more inward. Meditating on Beetle medicine is like tapping into a mutable orientation. Whether we are Franz Kafka or an Average Joe, we are all capable of metamorphosis. Is anyone else inspired by a bug’s capacity to radically change from an egg to a grub stage and then fly away as a winged creature? In women, this is somewhat akin to menopause or “mentalpause” as I have heard it called. Do I embrace this heated change or fight it like a war on something I reject?
During our tracking right now, many of us remember our heavy heartfelt losses. There is much pain and it is hard to make friends with that. Picture the horribly uncomfortable position of grieving the death of a partner, while giving birth to a new child simultaneously. Some folks have lost their jobs, their homes or gone through gut-wrenching break-ups, separations or divorce. Even our worried well in the pampered West, are waking up to the hard times we are living in. Others feel like they don’t know who they are anymore and are uncertain of who they are becoming. In the mystery of Life, has anyone ever lost a loved one to suicide, unexpected death or any other permanent physical good-bye? It is a mixed blessing to feel the spirit of the season and also really feel the deep hurt and anger regarding our myriad of deeply traumatic soul wounds, including the inequities, pain and suffering on our planet today. After I lost my mom to suicide, I felt abandoned and forced to enter into adulthood with deeper wounds than your average Bear. I had already felt that before she whacked herself, but the void widened, part of me died as well. But it wasn’t the first time I felt that way, nor will it be the last. Tempting as it was pursuing career goals, objectives and being driven to distraction–doing the inner work is always what yields fruitful and sustainable returns. Living isn’t really sustainable until we wake up to our deeper feelings, while stoking the fiery embers of passion and courage to move toward intimacy, while letting go of egocentric avoidance tactics that keep us asleep. Some of us have fantastic avoidance mechanisms in place that get in the way of us getting in touch with our deeper souls.
The old world of white privilege is dying too and it is OK to grieve that. Some white folks feel like they are losing their country and for them, things seem to be getting worse and they are feeling resentful about it. Some complainants at the top of the economic food chain do not think it is fair that they might have to pay a little more if the Bush tax cuts fade away. But a simple perceptual shift reveals that when the playing field is leveled for everyone else, there is enough and we can all win. When I see a community of straight white men going out on a limb and intimately sharing their feelings around a fire and cheering for gay folks being allowed to join our formerly exclusive club–it fills my heart with hope to see Karma being cleared. Yes, social change is slow and Great Spirit works in mysterious ways. Human rights, gay rights, gender equality, civil rights, worker rights and culturally sensitive mental health assessments and testing and equal access to resources are all manifestations of our forward progress. But we need to remember that conservative energy anchors us in our traditions and be sensitive to that too. Sometimes this looks like taking one step up and two steps back.
We cannot always be in control of our lives and remain in our inner peace bubble. Spiritual beings having a human experience need to come down from the mountain and learn to be on the ground with our fellow brothers and sisters. Sometimes, our securities wane gradually, while at other times they wash away instantly. We need to remember that we can control our attitude and how we respond to the cards that are dealt, regardless of how uncomfortable we feel about them. But the democratic process is messy. We are all in this together and we all have a say in the great waves of changes coming our way.