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My Grandfather died sometime around the last New Moon.
He was my surrogate father, and provider of much Sun in my life.

Big Frank carried a strong presence, albeit with a penchant for being stoic,
and was a bit of the strong silent type.

Then again, the brother was a gifted storyteller.

As a first generation Italian-American,
I think about how these qualities helped him successfully assimilate
into mainstream American culture

But he was proud of his roots, and never forgot them.
Later in life, he became more pursuant of exploring their historical depth.

A dear friend expressed to me recently that
he was there when I needed him, and he had me too.

Authentic relationships are based on reciprocity.

Before he left this Earth, he talked about looking forward to
whatever his “new program” would look like.

He wondered what it would be like, in the spirit realm –
what loved ones he might see to greet him there,
and other related inquisitive sentiments about making this transition.

His attitude about viewing every day as a gift was inspirational.

I remember when I was a kid, and I learned that he was
orphaned before he became an adult.

That parallel connection has helped me get through my own troubled times.

As such, he shared with me that he never thought he’d make it past 40 –
on account of the plight of his parents dying young.

I believe that trauma motivated him to play every down like it was his last.
But not without investing in a sound long-term game plan.

My Grandpa was 47 when I was born,
and was given a second chance at fatherhood.

He taught me some of the positive aspects of the old school.

I liked hearing his mantras about not believing that
anybody else is better or worse than you.

He was a good role model about sucking it up, and to keep on trucking,
in spite of whatever obstacles you have to overcome.

I do feel sad about the loss that the void of
a loved one who passes on leaves behind.

But I also look forward to having a deeper and higher spiritual relationship
with him as we make forward progress on the playing field together.

And I wish that way of looking at it for others who survive their
friends and relations who have left them behind.

Yeah, abandonment is traumatic. It is painful to digest,
and often not without suffering.

Yet there is great joy in focusing on the good memories, and
celebrating a soul’s release from its entanglement with form.

Seems pragmatic to relax our entanglements while
we are still breathing, and living in this realm.

When they made this guy, they really broke the mold.

He wasn’t without his faults because he was a human being.
But he was a good role model, especially with his humility, and wisdom.

The dying process, like moving from one residence to another location –
seems like everyone has their own unique way of going about it.

Although we called him Chronos, Grandfather took his time with this change.

But during most of his years, he was the epitome of running the
hurry up offense, to use an American football metaphor.

If you weren’t five minutes early, then you were five minutes late.
He was notorious for pacing, and jingling his keys when waiting impatiently

I’ve often joked with folks about how he would’ve really struggled with
that reality in the business of Public Education.

His progressive embodiment about how the competitive business world should
embody fairness, honesty and integrity still makes too much sense to me.

In any organization, everybody in it, should be valued and appreciated.
I know that has informed my work as a social worker in Public Schools.

A child might be identified as Special Education, Gifted and Talented,
Vocational, College Bound, privileged, homeless or living in poverty . . .

Their parents could be pillars of the community, mentally ill, incarcerated,
lost a job, divorced, or dealing with addiction . . .

The point is that if we are family, or strangers out in the street,
we all need to look out for each other.

We are the General Welfare that the Preamble to our Constitution speaks of.

Good workers, make a boss look good – Grandpa was outspoken about that.

When questioned about his politics about life,
he emphasized that he felt thankful for having an attitude of feeling satisfied –
regardless of what setbacks or good fortune were in the cards dealt to you.

Ciao Old Buddy – looking forward to hearing stories
about your new program development!

Ari

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Picture a Wolf as you tune in to the energies of a Full Moon arriving on Saturday . . .

May we remember our mystical connections to the Moon –
Awakening perceptual hidden knowledge and wisdom

Beaming in the light of consciousness in our everyday realities . . .

Let Wolf invoke your own wise teacher within
to help you find your own path to follow

Wolf’s tracks reveal wise spiritual guidance counsel along the trails
Encouraging us to allow our diverse hearts to beat together in oneness

Bring back balance to our energetic pack connection to one another . . .
May we harmonize with our diversity in unity

Mercury in Retrograde spins yesteryear recordings of a time
when hungry wolf packs howled outside old tribal villages

How do your past experiences play out in your present reality?
What do you have to learn about yourself from past relationships and experiences?

Sometimes we are revisited by meaningful connections in our consciousness
through dreams, visions or even physical contact

Winter is a natural time of year to open-up our hearts to feel sadness
It is healthy for us to grieve the passing
of our loved ones who are no longer physically with us in our lives

Perhaps a past relationship or a change in your identity has resurfaced for you

It is good to process these feelings about past relationships
that have faded away in time and space

May we resurrect their imprint that lives on inside our souls . . .

Training ourselves to let go of our fear of loss and shed old scar tissue
Reveals the depth and power of love

As humans, we will always have attachments
Because we are entangled with form

But as spiritual beings having human experiences
We can soften our attachments by relaxing the ties that bind

Call on your guides, like Archangel Michael to help you with this process
Or get some good therapy to help you along

Gone are the days of being a lone wolf

Contemplate your politics of anger for a moment . . .

Donald Trump personifies hiding behind the surface of this primal emotion
Just observe how he feels justified in building a Berlin Wall around his heart
and greedily buys into a segregationist us and them mentality –
Capturing those sentiments shared by the Fear Factor in others

But Bernie Sanders strikes a chord of an Aquarian we consciousness that resonates
with the collective will of the people in much the same way
as Civil Rights activists transformed their anger into positive and constructive action
Like him, many of us understands that we are all in this together

A more fair and just society belongs to all of us . . .
Equality means that the voices of black folks, GLBTQ people
and others that are marginalized
are just as important for us to hear as humans that sit in privilege

Economic strangulation suffocates all of us, whether realized or not

Are you feeding your inner wise wolf or the angry wolf?

Hope to see you onward up the trails,

Ari

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Previously, in my eyes loving you was all I thought mattered.
But seeing you hurt – your soul and mine . . .
Has left my heart shattered.

I have given enough – I have no more to share.
With you my dear – in our ongoing affair.

Like a Robin in winter – I have flown away toward the light.
Severing energetically coveted ties . . .

Of you from my eyes.

Eternally resting – a peacefully quiet place in my soul reserved for you . . .
Infinitely wishing you peace, love and happiness too.

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